Let It Rain

I have long been aware that it’s impossible to sin when I’m caught up in worshiping the Lord. Nothing unclean will abide His presence. The problem comes in when I’m no longer worshiping, when in the inevitable fading from His presence, I begin to forget what I am in Him.

Last week, during Sunday morning worship, I was brought powerfully into His presence, in a way that I honestly never experienced before. I felt like I was standing in the rain, not just any rain, but a torrential downpour. I could feel filth washing away – old, dry forms of filth that had been on me so long I was unaware that it existed. And I sensed the immanence of a profound choice – that I could be fundamentally changed forever or go back to who I was before the rain came.

A single thought arose in my mind, that living in a permanent state of worship is living in a state of holiness. Worship is holiness. Holiness is worship. Being in His presence is an end to the struggle with sin.

True worship, when we really connect to the Lord,  cannot help but change us. We become like the One we behold. Unlike other approaches to seeking change, worship is focused on God and not ourselves. And after years of trying to grow by other means, I’ve become convinced that any method that focuses on who we are, and not on who He is, has no chance of working.

To say that a single worship experience could actually change me forever clearly seems presumptuous,  but I did call out to Him to finish what He started.  I can say that I’ve been noticeably more calm and more patient since then. Maybe this speaks to what I sensed so strongly was at stake, and maybe it’s unrelated. Presumption would be to read into my experience more than was evident and I won’t do that. But I do know something happened and I look forward to discovering what it was.

8 I have set the Lord always before me;
Because He is at my right hand I shall not be moved.
9 Therefore my heart is glad, and my glory rejoices;
My flesh also will rest in hope.
10 For You will not leave my soul in Sheol,
Nor will You allow Your Holy One to see corruption.
11 You will show me the path of life;
In Your presence is fullness of joy;
At Your right hand are pleasures forevermore.

Psalm 16:7-11 (NKJV)

This Psalm has come to life for me since this started. Whenever I read it, I am drawn into His presence. And in His presence “is fullness of joy.”

- January 19, 2015